Well I went and had my Lasik eye assessment yesterday afternoon. First I had to watch a video about all the potential risks and dangers associated with Lasik, then had a whole heap of tests done, only to find out that my cornea is too thin to have either Lasik or PRK. To meet the Australian Standard, the cornea has to be a minimum of 510 microns or something, and mine is way thin, getting down to 380 microns in some parts.
He said it was nothing that I've done, its not like I've worn away the cornea by wearing contact lenses for so long, its just the way I am - like having fine hair, or thin fingernails... thin corneas cause no other problems other than if you want to get Lasik done. But I do have an option - I'm suitable for Implantable Contact Lenses, which has not been done a lot in Australlia, but if I go with that it means that I CANT get them done before the trip. Plus you have to get one eye done at a time, with a few weeks in between. So this might be an option for February next year. Got lots of research to do!
Unfortunately because I was so excited beforehand, and totally had my heart set on being able to have it done, I was so disappointed when we left that I burst into tears as soon as we got in the lift. And I was weirded out with having dilated pupils (which means that your eyes cant adjust to the light and bright light/daylight hurts), and I was feeling quite low yesterday afternoon. Spoke to mum and dad about it, and they were great - dad was telling me to be philosophical about it - things happen for a reason, and this other procedure sounds like a much better alternative, its reversible, the results are instant rather than waiting for that "adjusting" period of 3-6 months that Lasik has... I just cant have it done now, thats all.
Anyway I had a glass of wine and a handful of peanuts last night, which made me feel even worse. I felt so gross and even drunk on ONE glass of wine! Didnt feel like going to gym this morning, but I got up on autopilot and went anyway. I humm'd and haaah'd about doing Step because I felt really lacking in energy. At the last minute I decided to do it anyway, but only used one block instead of two. Felt absolutely shattered afterwards, burned 430 calories, but also felt much better. What would I do without exercise?!! It always makes you feel good!
And was rewarded this morning when I stepped on the scales to find that I've reached 57kgs!
This week for some reason I'm not enjoying my food. Apart from last night I've eaten 100% clean and on plan, but I'm so bored with my food! I need to find some good recipe alternatives for dinner. There's only so much chicken and salad, lamb and salad, and fish and salad that a girl can bear. I've been eating this way for a year and a half now and always enjoyed it, but for some reason this week I cant stomach it. I eat stir fries for lunch, so I dont want to eat that for dinner as well. Does anyone have any suggestions, or point me to a few websites?
Good luck to all who are competing this weekend in Melbourne - wish I could be there!!