Sunday, September 16, 2007

Time for an update

Time for an update I guess. I've struggled this last week. The car accident really played on my mind a lot. I've been jittery ever since. I had to continue to drive all that way for another two days afterwards, which really did nothing for my nerves. It has really opened my eyes to how often people take stupid risks on the road - its like every 10 minutes you see someone drive like a dickhead, and it has really rattled my nerves.

I'm very jumpy - the other night OH came to the top of the stairs to tell me something and I nearly leapt out of my skin. I had my mobile phone earplug in the other day and almost had heart failure when I looked down and saw the clip (I thought it was a spider!!) I know it will pass, but it will take a little time.

There's also a lot of crap going on at work, and its very stressful, and I'm very unhappy. So when I get stressed I dont sleep. So I havent really slept much this week. Even when my eyes have been hanging out of my head, cant keep them open - I go to bed and am wide awake. I have tried meditation this week, after which I felt very refreshed and calm. Then I went to bed at 9pm and was still awake at midnight.

I haven't had any energy. I only trained once because I just didn't have anything in the tank. Stupidly I kept setting the alarm for 5am, cos I kept thinking "oh I'll sleep tonight and will be fine for gym in the morning" but when that alarm goes off - there is no way I could get up to train.

I didn't even eat off plan all week - until Friday that is. I suddenly realised I had PMT too! Then I ate sugar!

Anyway, I'm feeling better now. Two full nights of sleep have really helped. Putting this all behind me now and focusing on having a much better week this week.


Kristy said...

I can imagine how your feeling. I had someone reverse into me in the car park and now everytime I drive in the car park I am scared people are going to reverse into me again.

There are heaps of stupid people on the road and it is very scary. I hope you are feeling better soon Hilary.

Take care

RaeC said...

Sorry to hear about your accident hon, but glad to hear that you're alright... well apart from the emotional fallout, which is to be expected. I hope your nerves settle down soon. Damn trucks are a menace on the roads!! xxx

Shar said...

Hope you start to feel beter soon Hils!

Can't be good not sleeping.

Shar x

Splice said...

I feel terrible for you Hils.
I drive up and down from the GC to Brisbane on that highway alot and I know exactly what you mean by how many idiots there are on the road. Everytime I see some fool taking risks, it makes me sooo mad!

I'm hoping your nerves are settling down, it may take time but meditaion is a good thing to be doing right now, try to find time for it daily. I started meditation a few months ago and it is the best thing I could have done.

Sending hugs,

Selina said...

Oh you poor thing. That's terrible that the accident is playing on your nerves :( I hope that settles down soon for you
Plus the crap at work, no wonder you're not sleeping. Don't place too much pressure on yourself with training and stuff, just let things settle down.
thinking of you!!