Saturday, June 20, 2009

Now its time for the BIG news!

Now that all the excitement of the wedding is over, its time to share with you the OTHER big news in our lives.


Yep, I am 13 weeks pregnant!

Some of my friends know that this something that we have been struggling to achieve for the last 20 months or more. We started trying when I was still at my last job, which was 2 years ago!

After coming off the pill (was on it for 14 years!) we started trying. After a year of no luck, I went and had tests and found out that I have polycystic ovaries. I was devastated to find that out and it sent me into a bit of a downward emotional spiral, which is a lot of the reason for my insomnia and other stresses last year. The “good” news was that, although I have polycystic ovaries, the tests revealed that I don’t have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome – which means that I have the “faulty” ovaries, but not the symptoms that normally go with it.

I was assured that a treatment of Clomid would fix me up, and it DID cause me to ovulate, however, after 4 months of treatment, STILL NOT PREGNANT!!

We actually started planning this whole wedding back in January as a way of taking my mind off fertility stuff, to give me something else to think about!!

Meanwhile, it seems that girls, friends, co-workers, random strangers are getting pregnant at the drop of a hat, there are pregnant women everywhere – SO frustrating and upsetting! What is wrong with me?? I felt like I was close to having a breakdown, I was miserable, emotional all the time. Every month when “bitch week” arrived, I collapsed into a flood of tears, feeling like a failure, feeling guilty for depriving OH of a child, wondering what was wrong with me – WHY CANT I DO THIS???!!!!

So, with 4 months to go until the wedding, we decided to stop trying. Told the Ob/gyn that I was just going to concentrate on the wedding, couldn’t handle it anymore. We tentatively booked some key-hole surgery for July, to have a look inside me and see what else could be the problem.

And then I spent the next 5 weeks drinking COPIOUS amounts of alcohol and coffee, both things I had given up for so long. (I think I drank 6 months worth of alcohol in those 5 weeks!). I didn’t think about pregnancy anymore, I stopped reading about conception, stopped counting days etc.

Unbeknownst to me, I spontaneous ovulated, without the help of any drugs.

And then a few weeks later, I was 10 days late for that-time-of-the-month. And even though I was convinced that there was no way on earth that I could be pregnant,I did a test. And it was positive…

OH – MY – GOD!!!!!!!! Husband-to-be gets all emotional. I’m in shock.

OMG, OMG, OMG… pregnant!!!!!! SO excited, wanted to shout it from the rooftops, ring everyone we knew, tell the WORLD!

But of course, we didn’t tell anyone except our immediate families. We found out just before Anzac Day. I worked out the dates, and realized that if this all went according to plan, I’d be 12 weeks pregnant at the wedding! So we kept our fingers crossed for the next 7 weeks!

We affectionately name bubs “tic tac”. At 5 weeks pregnant, that’s about the size of the embryo. Plus it sounds better than calling it “IT”. By now (June) it has outgrown the name tic tac, but the name has stuck!

We had our 12 week scan on the Wednesday before the wedding, and I cannot describe how amazing and incredible it was to see our little tic tac leaping about inside me. Hubby was stunned. My own jaw hit the floor and stayed there for a good 5 minutes. Tic tac was bouncing around, kicking its legs like crazy, punching the air, doing somersaults (well, almost!).

And the best news ever? Tic tac is looking absolutely fine, healthy and normal. PHEW!

We made the big announcement at the speeches at our wedding reception, and it was a very emotional moment when hubby declared that he was going to be a dad for the first time!

And no – we are not planning on finding out if tic tac is a boy or a girl – that will have to wait until the big day!

Tic-tac is due to join us around the 22nd of December!


Frankie said...

OMG!!! yay!! that's fantastic news Hilary I'm sooooo happy for you.

You poor bugger, no wonder you were stressing.

Aww..happies :o)

Andrea said...

Firstly - Congrats on your beautiful wedding Hils!! you looked stunning!
AND a HUGE congratulations on your exciting pregnancy news. I am so happy for you.

It is truly the most wonderful rewarding thing you will ever do.


Kelly said...

Wow! Talk about when it rains it pours. That is brilliant news. I hope you have a wonderful smooth pregnancy :)

SeLiNa said...

CONGRATULATIONS HILS!! So much to catch up on - your wedding looked beautiful and you looked gorgeous of course :)
What an exciting year for you!
My sis & hubby tried for 2 years (started bout the same time as you I guess!) and she's due in November - she too was diagnosed with Polycystic ovaries.
All that non-stressing over falling must have worked for you! All the bst for a healthy and safe pregnancy!!

jodie said...

Congrats Hils! That is AWESOME news. You will be a beautiful mummy. It is hard work but so worth it! Hope your pregnancy goes well and can't wait to meet your little person in December.

Robyn said...

Brilliant news, Hilary! It amazes me every time when I hear the private struggles people have been through.
Btw, I genuinely feel encouraged knowing that even you fall into bad old coping styles (e.g. alcohol) every now and then. Irony is, that sometimes a change in routine does just the trick... or it may be just coincidence. ;)

RaeC said...

This is such exciting news, but OMG... this is SO spooky!! It's exactly what happened to my sis. They tried to get pregnant but couldn't, so decided to concentrate on the wedding and fell pregnant almost the minute they focussed on something else. I guess there is such a thing as trying too hard for some things.

You are going to make a wonderful mum Hilary. Tic Tac is one lucky little thing and I am so happy you have been blessed with your heart's desire xxx

LizN said...

Congratulations Hilary! I have PCOS and found it very difficult to fall preggers as well - same thing pretty much happened to me..

Valley Girl said...

Congratulations sweety...

it's the best thing in the world to have a little person created between 2 people that love each other...

babies are a blessing!

Pip said...


Congrats to you Hils! 2009 is an awesome happening year for you!

All the best, - and you looked fab on your wedding day!


Kerry W said...

Have already congratulated you via FB, but wanted to do so again in blogland. CONGRATS HILARY!

It really is fantastic news and I am all teary reading about your pregnancy endeavours, as it brings back memories. I think the scans are the most memorable as you watch your baby grow. It's the most amazing experience and it really puts you in awe of creation.

Wishing you and tic-tac all the best of health while you wait for his/her arrival.

linda said...

Hi Hilary- I pass through your blog from time to time. Congratulations on the weddng ( you looked beautiful) Your news is wonderful- all the very best- it's an exciting time!

Magda said...

Double congratulations to you and OH Hilary.

:-) XX Magda

Alicia said...

Congrats again Hils :) I'm really stoked for you guys! Now the real countdown begins! xox

Jadey said...

That is so exciting. My smile is still on my face as I write this! Congratulations to you both. WOW! The next year will be so exciting for you guys, how beautiful! Treasure every moment - jadey xxx

ali said...

Congratulations Hillary!!! On both accounts could not be happier for you both!!! it is just wonderful news Love Ali xxx

Rebecca said...

Wow!!! Congratulations Hilary, I am soooooo happy for you and your hubby!!

I am sorry that you have had such a struggle but it shows that everything was meant to happen when it did. This little bubba is meant to be and will have wonderful parents. I am so happy for you.

xox Rebecca

Kerry said...

Congratulations Hilary, Like everyone else I am very happy for you both.
I have my fingers crossed for the 21st, December.

Love to you both.


Sue said...

That's just lovely Hils. I've know for awhile, but reading your post made me smile :) And hey I've never seen a pic of your hubby, he's rather handsome! You and him combined and your little bub should be a looker :)

Sue said...

Oops, it's moi, Sue Heintze :) I'm obviously in the wrong google account.

Splice said...

OMG I'm so very excited for you!!! Sorry i'm late in congratulating you but I am so very happy for you and wish you a happy pregnancy!
Deb xxx

Shar said...


I am normally religous at checking in on the blogs that show as updated on my list thingymagig, but I must have missed a few there and around the time you make your announcment!!

CONGRATS HILS, I am very happy for you, such a long journey to get to that point for you.

Stay well and I look forward to your journey!

Shar x

Hilds said...

Oh wow, that's just the best news ever! I've got my best friend and sister both madly trying to get pregnant and have been trying for a while. I think they will find your blog very inspiring, thanks for sharing it with us.

I'm so excited for you both, plus little tic tac. Take Care and enjoy the experience!


Anonymous said...

WOW congratulations on both your wedding and pregnancy, better late than never I guess. Gosh when it rains it pours at your house Hilary. So much joy and wonderful news, I'm truly happy for you and wish you the happiest and brightest of futures. xxx